Dear readers,
Today I worked on the big pink canvas again. Which is not that pink anymore.
I was really getting stuck in thinking about the colour, the shapes. I was feeling frustrated and more and more in my head. So today I took out my black and white paint, and started to paint really quickly and expressionistic. I was tired of the ‘constructing’ and ‘constricted’ direction that my painting had taken. I don’t know if this going to end anywhere, but I did not have as much fun in a long time. I forget time, and just play around, like a little kid, with my paint and (huge, 7 cm wide) brushes. Scratching in the thick wet paint which a palette knife. I want to find back that energy again in my painting that I like so much.
I always love it when I see raw energy in a painting, and now I got back on my own ‘raw’ horse again. Don’t know if it is going to be a pretty picture, but this is what I want to do.
I was afraid of spoiling my pink canvas, and I thought: maybe I should put it away for a moment. But I did not have another canvas, so I thought: who cares. I am not happy with it anyway. Go for it!
This raw way of painting affects also how I feel myself in the world. If I can be bold on the canvas, I can be bold in life too.
Have a wonderful day, and thank you for taking the time to read all this!
Simone
ps: afterward I literally threw the black and white paint on the throwawayboard.
Above you find the 100/100 cm painting.
And below the 50/50 throwawayboard.
And here below you find some details of the bigger 100/100 paintings.
I really like taking my camera and take photographs of small details. They are paintings in themselves. I like it when I can see those really small details from very close.
Oh, what a fun surprise to see you added four close-ups from the bigger painting. Great idea. I love that those close-ups let me jump right into raw!
Hi Dotty, thanks for your encouraging reaction!
Yes, indeed: I recognize what you say: the class is wonderful, I learn a lot, it gives a lot of possibilities, but there is not much time left if I want to do it right. And the raw and uncontrolled part does not play such a big role in it. And sometimes that starts to itch!
I wish you a good time in Maine with your father!
bye,
Simone
Simone, I love everything about this post—everything: your discussion and your pink painting and your throwaway board. I have been so out straight with the combination of our JD class and many unusual demands in the outside-the-studio part of my life that I have done no painting other than class lessons, and most of that has not felt raw, quick, impressionistic, who-cares, little-kid, or just-playing-around. I wish I were at home right now (I’m in Maine with my dad) so I could climb up on my own raw horse and throw some paint around on the big experimental canvas I have sitting on my easel.
And your painting WILL end somewhere! Eager to see when and where : )
ps: I added four close ups from the bigger painting.